Yesterday I posted about a friend’s God moment. What I didn’t say in that post is that I had a God Moment of my own yesterday. Let me just begin by saying I’m so thankful that I had the day off because I needed every minute of it to prepare for the next three weeks of my life.
I love to travel, but I don’t like packing, particularly for long trips. This one is especially difficult because I’m going to be spending this week in Colorado on business in the cold and next week in the warm climate of the mountains in Guatemala on a mission. The week after that I will be in San Francisco with only a day or two at home.
Needless to say, I was very stressed yesterday with final preparations. I was scrambling trying to figure out how to make the trip more comfortable for myself and pack. It lead me to a personal meltdown and I ended up venting a bit to my wife. Considering the circumstances, she was very supportive and tried to help, but I just couldn’t understand why things weren’t going the way they should.
At that point, I realized I had to stop for a minute and I reached out God. “God, why are things going this way and what do I need to do to get back on track? I know I shouldn’t be feeling this way. Why am I not trusting in your providence?” I thought back to last summer and the lessons I learned preparing for Tecate and how God opened the doors for the work that we did there. That’s when I began to calm down and I changed my thinking, “What is the most important thing I need to accomplish here and now?”
That’s when my thoughts were refocused. “It’s the children in Guatemala we’re going to serve.” Then I realized that all of my needs had already been met. God had this trip planned long before I did and he would insure that I had time to do what was required. I was being selfish and not trusting him.
One of my biggest faults is that I try to do too much when God has it all handled. He does expect us to do our part, but not to carry the burden of it all because he already has.
So instead of focusing on my needs I made my last stop at Wal-mart and went shopping for the kids and our ministry. When I walked out, I felt completely at peace because I realized that he’d just sent me to meet a need and the journey had already begun.